Where do we go now?

'Disappointment is the nurse of wisdom', Sir Boyle Roche once said....

I hate it when little, very unimportant disappointments like these are all experienced at the same time. That way they stack up and make you feel like a total loser. Especially when your expectations weren't even that high, but the disappointment still really seems to hit you in the face. This particular thing that made me disappointed is starting to mess with me, it makes the confusion about my feelings I already had worse, and it's getting frustrating.

I also feel stupid and ashamed for having this disappointed feeling, because it's just some little things that someone else wouldn't care about, it's just that they're all coming my way at the same time, which makes me feel sad.

In school I always tried to think negative, so results always turned out better than I expected. But often, outside school, I tend to get too enthusiastic about certain things or expect too much and well... sometimes things just don't turn out the way you want, right? That's just a fact of life, perfection is most of the time unachievable. And I know I could make it better by thinking about things in my life that turned out better than I could ever hope or think about how I can learn from the experienced disappointment(s).
But I also don't think you should always keep your expectations too low, because then you'd lose the ability to feel enthusiasm or hope. You would become a very embittered person, who is not motivated in life.

The confusion about my feelings, that was caused by that one particular disappointment, made me wonder about my purpose. What do I do now?
Because this particular thing changed my original purpose at first, and gave me a feeling of enlightment and hope. It swept me off my normal 'pattern' in life and just the tought of it made me feel good. It was something I thought I deserved. But now it makes me wonder if I should focus on something else and let the whole thing go. It probably wasn't even going to work out anyway, and I knew that from the start, but I still wanted to give myself the opportunity to explore.

So what now?
Try to let it go a little bit I guess, I'm not completely going to forget it, but I'll just try not to think about it too much and focus on the average things in my life and the positive things that are coming up. I should also try to enjoy the happiness that the unexpected sometimes can bring...